| beautiful things that spring from these rows with their musical names and musical sounds. |
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| To be deep and over dramatic-
everything seems a little out of control.
I can't make everyone happy, and lately it kind of seems like I can't keep anyone happy.
that is, while keeping myself happy, which.. is the point, anyway, right? So, what am I supposed to do?
It's just a lot to deal with. I want to be fair, to him and him and myself and everyone else I'm including in this hectic ridiculous period of my life.
People don't realize how much they ask sometimes and I'm too quick to oblige. The fact that I have no idea what I want is only making things worse.
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| I'm lying to everyone.
I'm not over Shelley at all.
That cry on demand, deep sinking nervous feeling always comes back when I'm alone.
I sound like such a faggy kid, but dude. I wanted to be over this so bad. |
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| that last entry was everywhere.
Man, overall, I'm fine. I have so much free time. I've been seeing my friends more often. Saw Keith twice in a week! JJ and I are making plans to live together at the end of summer. I think that would be so awesome. I start work tomorrow and I'm a little nervous but Shelby loves it, so.. I'm hoping that means I will too. I cannot wait for tattoos, it's all I think about! |
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| I dyed my hair red. and I got a job. And I finally saw him again. and again and again to where I guess I don't really mind anymore. And I've been in such a good lately as a result of it all. Plus, spring break is next week. I can't wait. First paycheck = first tattoo, MARK MINE WORDS. |
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